I know that for my mom would not have been easy to get pregnant at 15 years and leave everything for me, his error.
But I know that I AM NOT MY MOM and I'm not here to fix your mistakes, or to do things she did.
I want to learn to grow, do not want to be the protagonist of a story that is not for me, need to understand that 'm not perfect and I very much regret not being able to be what they expect it to be, just want to let me be me .
I fall and get up myself, I learn, I love and disillusion, I earn my own experiences.
pretend to know what is best for me when not even know how I feel I need the same amount of freedom that I give the limits because I let it grow.
If I fall will be my fault, not my mom or my grandparents are to blame for what happens to me because we are not perfect. Unfortunately my happiness or my depend solely on me. I know I have obligations to you, my family, but my main duty is myself .
After all what happened, I'm here, no more no less I've found that high expectations of me. I'm comfortable here in my cage SOLA, with no one. Sola anger me, laughed and cried . And here in my comfortable cage I realize I'm only a lie , everything is a lie and I do not want any part of this, I make my living without get along with anyone laugh for me, success for me.
But now I can not live, I feel the greatest sadness that does not fit well on me, and I feel my heart will burst with pain. Fear has taken refuge in my room, nobody opened the door, he only came to make me understand that I acted like everyone wanted and I say that I never sought to tame them.
ever told me "If someone broke your heart to pieces it still does not lose faith in yourself" , I felt to live, be happy, reinvetarme, if I, and if they I'm honest now at 12:28 am I have no desire anything. Everything was fine, everything was a colorful celebration of nothing all took an unexpected turn insecurity and misunderstandings.
do I do? Give up my life? I have the heart hurt and my life in standby .
But I know that I AM NOT MY MOM and I'm not here to fix your mistakes, or to do things she did.
I want to learn to grow, do not want to be the protagonist of a story that is not for me, need to understand that 'm not perfect and I very much regret not being able to be what they expect it to be, just want to let me be me .
I fall and get up myself, I learn, I love and disillusion, I earn my own experiences.
pretend to know what is best for me when not even know how I feel I need the same amount of freedom that I give the limits because I let it grow.
If I fall will be my fault, not my mom or my grandparents are to blame for what happens to me because we are not perfect. Unfortunately my happiness or my depend solely on me. I know I have obligations to you, my family, but my main duty is myself .
After all what happened, I'm here, no more no less I've found that high expectations of me. I'm comfortable here in my cage SOLA, with no one. Sola anger me, laughed and cried . And here in my comfortable cage I realize I'm only a lie , everything is a lie and I do not want any part of this, I make my living without get along with anyone laugh for me, success for me.
But now I can not live, I feel the greatest sadness that does not fit well on me, and I feel my heart will burst with pain. Fear has taken refuge in my room, nobody opened the door, he only came to make me understand that I acted like everyone wanted and I say that I never sought to tame them.
ever told me "If someone broke your heart to pieces it still does not lose faith in yourself" , I felt to live, be happy, reinvetarme, if I, and if they I'm honest now at 12:28 am I have no desire anything. Everything was fine, everything was a colorful celebration of nothing all took an unexpected turn insecurity and misunderstandings.
do I do? Give up my life? I have the heart hurt and my life in standby .
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